ADD....Absolutely Distracted & Disinterested

I'm finding that I have about 2 days worth of awesome effort where I can start projects (because I'm best at starting things, and suck at finishing them), read my manuals, and stay on track in all courses of life.

Then....it all goes to hell. It doesn't really take a whole lot to throw me off. A nice day out, a sick dog, a sale listed in the paper (at a store I don't need to go to). At this point, I may as well check out because any effort I make to get things accomplished are met by forgetfulness, losing my keys, and generalized anger or confusion :)

I was good until Tuesday of this week. Now, its about time for me to get my ass in gear considering my first quiz of the semester happens to be tomorrow and I have no idea what I'm doing.

There are moments when I ask myself what the heck I'm doing. I'm 30, and going back into a school process that will take me 4.5 years? Am I nuts?? I should be working on finding a way to spend the rest of my life slacking off on Hatteras Island in between hurricanes. I should be focusing on furthering this business of mine which has surprisingly done well. I should be figuring out why I hate the idea of having kids so much (other parents, school, poop, mommy boringness), and getting over it, to start producing 'those-who-will-care-for-me-later-when-I'm-old'.

Yeah, who knows. Guess I'll stay in school. The idea of being 'Dr. Dyke' is rather appealing. And I know I can ace the programs....if....I...can...just...focus.